i can't do this all on my own, i'm no superman.

ok, so maybe that was a Scrubs reference, but hey, I'm only human. And bored. Uber bored. And currently not wearing my signature horse shoe necklace, which is weird. I keep thinking it's there and reaching for it and it's gone. Granted it's on my dresser in my room, but still, it's not here. I guess that's how I'm feeling right now: like something is missing. The problem is, I know exactly what's missing, but I can't do anything about it. See it's different with this necklace. I know it's in my room, 10 steps away. I know that I can just get up and go get it, only I probably won't. Because this other thing that's missing, I can't just go get it and fix this problem. Because it's not up to me anymore. I just want to know, if we were in this together, then why do I feel like I'm the only one who's lost everything.

random thoughts

"Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all"

-Boys Like Girls

Have you ever met someone and thought to yourself 'I really wish i were them.'? Well I have, and i could make a list of the people I have thought that about. Or have you ever met someone and wished you were friends with them? Again, I could make a list of the people I have thought that about. In the end, you never do become friends with those people, you remain wishing you were friends with them. And in the end, the people who you thought had these perfect, wonderful lives, well it turns out they're just living a lie.

Speaking of lying; if there's one skill that's useful in this world it's the ability to tell a lie, and tell it properly so that people will believe you. The best one of all is: I'm fine. Every thing is fine. (Ha, as if.)

Sometimes people who are dating just stay together because it's convenient at the time. It'd be too complicated to break up. Maybe they're curious about someone new, but it's like going into outer space, yeah you're curious, but you know it's never going to happen. (sorry that I stole your line, it's a good one, and you always said I was a copy cat, so there you go.)

Curtis is in Iowa: Indiana / Ohio Border

Curtis is in Iowa: Indiana / Ohio Border

back to school.

back to school, and things seem to be going well so far. i'm not gonna lie, organic chem is going to kick my butt, but ill survive. sophomore year is my favorite year of college so far, thanks to a certain someone. bio should be interesting. but most importantly, i have friends.

day of truth.

today marks three weeks since the volleyball incident. i decided that i'm going back to play this week, i'm just not going to be allowed to help set up the nets. our game plan: arrive ten minutes late as to avoid any hazards all together. hehe.

one frantic car ride, two volleyball net poles, three xrays, four staples, and five hours later.

so i went to play volleyball last night. i was trying to be helpful, and where does that get me? a trip to the emergency room. woohoo.... this will be short since i'm not exactly in the mood for pouring my heart out.

instead, let's make a list of things i don't get to do now. a) no motorcycling for a few weeks. b) no driving for a few days. c) no swimming at kristie's grad party on friday. d) no being able to wash my own hair for a week. e) and since these staples are in the back of my head, i don't even get to see them. yes, i know, i should be more upset about that fact that i got hurt, but really, i just want to be able to see them, but no one has taken a good picture yet. oh well.

Cliche.

Four down, one to go.  That's the stereotypical response you would receive when you ask a college student how they're doing during finals week.  That's so cliche, boring.  No thanks.  If you were to ask me how I'm doing, currently, I would probably answer as follows:  All I have left is Biology, and then I can go home.  Although, I do have to pack between now and Monday afternoon, but don't worry, I'll get there.  This type of packing should be easier than most.  Basically, take everything off the shelves, out of the closet, and empty all the drawers.  Throw all my stuff into boxes, and tape them shut.  The hard part comes when I have to carry all these boxes down a flight of stairs to my ready and waiting car.

This past year has been interesting, no doubt.  Let's recap.  I've made some great new friends as well as keeping the old ones that matter.  Long distance friendships are difficult, especially when your main source of communication is Instant Messenger, but look, we've survived.  We're still friends, and will be for a long time.  This makes me smile.

As bored as I currently am, I thought this was going to be an uber long post, but it turns out it's going to be cut short.  I'm just that bored; not a good this.  Too much free time tends to make my mind wander, and I really dislike that.