California

Isn't it interesting when you discover something you thought you had lost.  Upon creating a tumblr account for myself, I remembered about this little gem I had from my high school English class.  Wow, was I a whiny little kid.  How many years later and I'm starting to realize that who I am and who I was are two completely different people, but they're still me.

king of anything.

Just thought i'd share, to whoever may be bored enough to want to read about my ramblings....anyway. there's a new song out by sara bareilles, and i'm in love. like seriously. Go look it up, it's called "King of Anything" and it's amazing. Not to mention that the music video and great, but the words are the best. It's like saying f*%$ you, but politely. And I wish I could be her.

olive garden

"what i want and what i need has now become the same thing you've been offering."

-Daughty

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars. I could really use a wish right now."

-B.o.B.

"I'm putting on my shades to cover up my eyes, I'm jumpin' in my ride, I'm heading out tonight."

- Jason Derulo

I don't even know. I'm so done. I give up, and I don't care. If only I were a better liar than that....

what i want.

I want to go to the beach and not get sun burn.

I want to have a job where I'm not considered the "newbie".

I want to drive the motorcycle everywhere I go.

I want to ride everyday and not be out of shape anymore.

I want a whole new wardrobe of clothes that will make me look good.

I want to be twenty-one and legal.

I want to pass all my classes in the fall.

I want to eat dinner at Sprague's.

I want my best friend back.

untitled.

hmmm....what else is new? how about absolutely nothing. seriously. I'm still deathly afraid of making phone calls. I still can't handle hot temperatures without feeling like passing out. I still can't eat normal meals without feeling sick. And apparently I still can't finish a post...whatever...story of my life.

i can't do this all on my own, i'm no superman.

ok, so maybe that was a Scrubs reference, but hey, I'm only human. And bored. Uber bored. And currently not wearing my signature horse shoe necklace, which is weird. I keep thinking it's there and reaching for it and it's gone. Granted it's on my dresser in my room, but still, it's not here. I guess that's how I'm feeling right now: like something is missing. The problem is, I know exactly what's missing, but I can't do anything about it. See it's different with this necklace. I know it's in my room, 10 steps away. I know that I can just get up and go get it, only I probably won't. Because this other thing that's missing, I can't just go get it and fix this problem. Because it's not up to me anymore. I just want to know, if we were in this together, then why do I feel like I'm the only one who's lost everything.

random thoughts

"Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all"

-Boys Like Girls

Have you ever met someone and thought to yourself 'I really wish i were them.'? Well I have, and i could make a list of the people I have thought that about. Or have you ever met someone and wished you were friends with them? Again, I could make a list of the people I have thought that about. In the end, you never do become friends with those people, you remain wishing you were friends with them. And in the end, the people who you thought had these perfect, wonderful lives, well it turns out they're just living a lie.

Speaking of lying; if there's one skill that's useful in this world it's the ability to tell a lie, and tell it properly so that people will believe you. The best one of all is: I'm fine. Every thing is fine. (Ha, as if.)

Sometimes people who are dating just stay together because it's convenient at the time. It'd be too complicated to break up. Maybe they're curious about someone new, but it's like going into outer space, yeah you're curious, but you know it's never going to happen. (sorry that I stole your line, it's a good one, and you always said I was a copy cat, so there you go.)